Hi, I'm a RECOVERING failure.
(oh yes! I'm awkward at taking pictures)
truth is, my parents turned me into a writer.
I remember how my mom defended me in front of my course supervisor right before I got kicked out of school. She looked him in the eyes and said "My Son is not a Failure".
My parents in general have made so many parental wrong decisions, but that moment always rings whenever I find myself stuck or feeling like these emotions from the times when I failed are coming back again.
And If I'm not a failure, then I'm what? A success or a work in progress, right?
For the last 10 years of my life, I've struggled with approval seeking and it comes from a place when I failed in college and ended up spending almost 10 years between 2 colleges instead of 4 years.
Whenever I failed at school, I felt like I let the family name down, and and wasting my parent's investments.
Have you ever hit rock bottom that you literally feel the hardness and sharpness of the rock on your ass?
My only coping mechanism was the internet. I found joy in creating/building stuff on the internet as a way reinforce my mom's statement "My Son is not a Failure".
I channeled all the energy I couldn't display in school into creative craft. I ended up building a media company, working with big brands (Coca-Cola, Five Alive) as an influencer marketer. That earned me getting featured on the biggest newspaper in my Country.
Those work experiences made me feel maybe I had a chance of making it in life. Turning my failure story into a quest for internet success.
So, here I am on Medium on that quest.
And the truth is, to build anything on the internet or be a successful and well-paid writer on MEDIUM it takes time, discipline, and determination.
Coincidentally, these are the same skills you need in the 4 walls of a classroom. Since I couldn't use in school, I'm finding ways to use it on the internet.
